Memories are special to everyone even if you cannot fully remember it or why it just popped up in your head but they will always be in the back of your memories file of your brain so when you want to recall what you remember. Childhood memories as I have learned are definitely hard to remember unless you were older then 5 years old but other then that it is always bits and pieces. Adult memories are less interesting to perceive because on the most part we will remember them exactly how it happened and not have to slowly remember in steps of what happened. Memories come in all different sizes and you see a repetitiveness such as mine I go on family vacations a lot and learn from those.
My recent memory of adulthood that I have experienced was going to the renaissance fair with my boyfriend and my family for the first time. The reason I say this memory is because before I was always shy and a mommy's girl so I did not ask to bring a guy anywhere except in town, Everyone would think what is the difference between there and then, I cannot really say for sure but I learned that asking your mom or any of our friends moms is not so bad even if you are a typically shy, want to keep things to yourself and have anxiety that makes you organize how and when you should do everything. That person was me back then but when I asked I was determined to get her to say yes because having a boyfriend go was more fun at the renaissance then I ever had because I saw a different perspective such as seeing different qualities of knifes, different kinds of foods. We would be walking down the different rows of shops just going in every store, when I know when I was with just a best friend we would not talk much unless it was necessary and would only go in jewelry stores which was boring because I had been to the renaissance festival every year and had done the same thing each year so this year was a change for me and would effect me every year. Anything you do always causes a chain reaction that effects you and possibly others around you, Well it effected my attitude to where I was not shy to ask who I wanted or ask anyone a question today, we both benefited I learned about self defense and knifes and he learned more about my passion for art. Even though I know I have to work on things slowly to improve I have not gotten anxiety down but it
takes time and patience for a person to receive the kind of treatment and relationships they want with themselves and others.This trip I will always remember even when time passes, things change, it changed who I was that I am today and I am proud of that because having the courage to do and say different things is a step to improvement along with how I view objects, landscapes differently because my boyfriends help.
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Trial and Error
Time is of the essence for everything we have to have time to do everything in our schedule along with a time consuming paper but not just essays for every class it is the research papers that are the hardest to first start off with. The beginning of every essay is always extremely hard for me to find a perfect subject that I like, understand, and enjoy and then the Introduction is the next hardest thing to do because you want to catch the reader but what is so frustrating with a research essay is because you have combine that with actually facts and source it so it will not be plagiarized which the citing is not too bad it is finding the exact phrase or whole page that describes your subject.
My choosing from David Small's " Stitches a Memoir" or my essay on the two poems "Anagrammer" and "Chapter One", of course the obvious choice for me was Stitches because I felt like I knew it better and could find some research on it more then poems about the language and how it can change everything. I was wrong and frustrated with the researching of Stitches because I feel I did not have much of a option since I wrote about the mother Betty and her actions toward David, My research first was very basic of just the emotional and psychological effect from non-verbal communication of Betty but with some help I added when I researched the words Neglect, child and mother I had so many more searches that helped me.
After finally being able to get key words that could help me find more about the effects of neglect of the child and their emoticon habits I have found so much more information about my topic. Once I had those keywords I mainly used academic search complete to finish my 5 sources plus the primary but I know what I have to do because I need to make sure they actually fit my topic. I need to sit down for a day to make sure that they emphasize the behavorial issues and what they can do for a child through their whole lives. I enjoyed researching this topic and found many viable options if I need to change a source of one does not work it is very simple to change that.
IT was frustrating but I think how this will work is now I will go back find some more sources on my own time at a different databases most of the cites shows the percentages of child neglect and how mental illnesses and the abandonment they feel which can change their attitudes towards adults. Putting these into perspective they will all go perfectly I think of how better in David smells book. How David feels about his mom is all in the book so I am thinking of putting also the child's perspective into it it's just comes up with the same results though. I have been slowly putting the quotes into my edited version of my paper for now and it is fluent but it does still need more work.
My choosing from David Small's " Stitches a Memoir" or my essay on the two poems "Anagrammer" and "Chapter One", of course the obvious choice for me was Stitches because I felt like I knew it better and could find some research on it more then poems about the language and how it can change everything. I was wrong and frustrated with the researching of Stitches because I feel I did not have much of a option since I wrote about the mother Betty and her actions toward David, My research first was very basic of just the emotional and psychological effect from non-verbal communication of Betty but with some help I added when I researched the words Neglect, child and mother I had so many more searches that helped me.
After finally being able to get key words that could help me find more about the effects of neglect of the child and their emoticon habits I have found so much more information about my topic. Once I had those keywords I mainly used academic search complete to finish my 5 sources plus the primary but I know what I have to do because I need to make sure they actually fit my topic. I need to sit down for a day to make sure that they emphasize the behavorial issues and what they can do for a child through their whole lives. I enjoyed researching this topic and found many viable options if I need to change a source of one does not work it is very simple to change that.
IT was frustrating but I think how this will work is now I will go back find some more sources on my own time at a different databases most of the cites shows the percentages of child neglect and how mental illnesses and the abandonment they feel which can change their attitudes towards adults. Putting these into perspective they will all go perfectly I think of how better in David smells book. How David feels about his mom is all in the book so I am thinking of putting also the child's perspective into it it's just comes up with the same results though. I have been slowly putting the quotes into my edited version of my paper for now and it is fluent but it does still need more work.
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